21 May, 2010 5/21/2010
Its been a long time since I've posted.
Well, i guess after the hulabaloo of italy and choir concert, things have been just a mere routine to me. Plain and drab and yet so inevitable.
Many things I've fought, many things I've faced.
Sometimes i won, and sometimes I let myself down.
Things that I've learnt, and
indeed I've grown.
I really a larger portion of faith and love for my King.
Thinking back on friendships, there were so much that i've forsaken for the sake of others, and at what cost, I question.
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After him I never really did confide in guys anymore. Part of me wants to break that barrier and thaw that frozen part of my heart, yet part of me's afraid that i'll get hurt again.
Hmm.
Sometimes during lessons my mind will just wander to songs sang in choir. This marriage, bare necessities, sohran bushi.
I really miss that time in Italy when we sang this marriage in the holding room when it rained. What I sang really spoke the depths of my heart, and i could even feel tears coming to my eyes as I sang and really meant the lyrics of the song.
Wish i could turn back time to that moment, and freeze it there forever.
And if tonight, ever makes a difference.The way that I feel- the way that I remember it.I'll take this down, till the glass remains,Swallow the words, that i was meant to say.Don't make sense, don't really matter though
